The first 2 days living all alone was an absolute nightmare. I woke up practically every hour of the night, finally giving up sleeping at 630am. Its crazy cause all I wanted to do was talk to the family. It feels so pathetic to be so unhappy and lonely.

It got better by the 3rd day, I was still upset, but not in the i-wanna-cry-out-loud-kinda way. When one door closes, another really opens. I chatted with hiroko online and who knew her side of canada was only 3 hours away from me! Good for a weekend trip? That thought keep me upbeat for quite awhile. Now, I am just pending on lower fuel prices to get my airticket, hopefully.

Of course, apart from family keeping me sane. I don't think I will be adapting that fast, without Cony and April. Thanks for reminding me that its normal and for making sure I am okay. I had an awesome time yesterday! That was prolly the turning point for me.

And also Debao, who is always online at wee hours, suiting my time. Keeping me occupied and being there for me, at any weird hours. FFs helped too! oh! and kevin for being on the same timeline as I am.

I don't wanna be so unhappy here anymore, cause I am in America! I was so much more homesick than I expected, but I am feeling better a whole load just after 3 days. I am giving myself till next week to start living the life of an exchange student. And when I finish this semester, I know I have truely done all 19 year olds proud.

=)

okay, I should really stop being so dramatic.

Things cannot go any worst lay leng, this is nothing to you,

this is nothing to you,

this is nothing to you,

you are very lucky you know.

I don't know if I am good enough, strong enough and smart enough to get through this...

A 30 year old trapped in a 19 year old's body...

HELLO! miss me ?

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BIG ASS PICTURE OF ME !

HAHAH!

okay la, that aside, I love the feeling of being rich...
I am in love with this baby.
no, I did not buy it...
However, what i did buy was,
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This kick ass dress!
Shut up,
Its gorgeous...

xoxo,

Stressed Berkeley student.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDRE TAN RUI RONG!

welcome to the club of matured people!

xoxo

In exactly 11 days time, I'll be all alone in this scary and exciting place called America.
I am so super glad I had Mum with me from the start, helping me settle down, travelling with me and basically, pampering me, as usual.

At times when I walk back home from school, I stop to remind myself I am finally in America- a concept I have yet to come to terms with.

School is pretty good, although I am taking on 5 subjects. I feel like I am learning a lot more than I would back in Melbourne in terms of academic. Settling in school is much easier based on the fact that everyone is really friendly and open, which wasn't the case in my course back in aussisland.

I guess the real challenge comes when Mum returns to spore and when the workload starts building up.

If its any incentive, I'll be watching a REAL FOOTBALL game! =D super exciting. Like those in the movies!!! With hot guys bashing each other up and bitchy cheerleaders!!!

That will prolly keep me excited till Nov, the prospect of heading over to New York and Washington is another way to keep me sane in this crazy dream I am living.

I am very lucky, you know?

xoxo

My first fortune cookie consumed in America states...

" A new relationship is about to blossom. You will be blessed."

Me: OMG MUM! I AM GONNA GET A AMERICAN BOYFRIEND!!!

Mum: Ya, better make sure you get a rich one.

haha.

I love you Mum.

=D

xoxo

Muir Woods was awesome! it was o.m.g-ly beautiful!!!
Cony, Me, April and Mummy!

Isnt it amazing?!

MY favourite picture of the day=)

Okay, too lazy to blog anymore.

xoxo

The Golden Gate Bridge was a place i knew i had to go and check out whilst in San fran. It looked really pretty on picture, but actually standing and walking/driving alone it, blows.you,away.

It was rather foggy when we arrive late morning- but i guess thats the special part about it, adding a little character to the bridge =).

Aunty Winnie is like one of the nicest people I've ever met so far. Shes so nice, its sinful!

Childhood friends!Awesomeness!

It was damn scary to be walking on the bridge when there are so many cars flying across the road + wind!!!

Place we stopped for a short lunch picnic before more shopping!

That aside, Mum, Cony, April and I will be heading over to Muir Woods & Sausalito tomorrow morning. Im sure its gonna be awesome. Thank god for weekends.

School's being aweful to me, I need a good break.

xoxo