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I seriously can't believe how time flies. It just stuck me once again when daddy spoke to me just now.

Haha. daddy was like asking how come I did not call back. And yes, I gave the excuse that the sisters kept using the phone so I can't call back. When, the matter of fact is, sister loh the 2nd calls them everyday. YES! EVERY SINGLE DAY! But I did not talk to them. haha. I miss every single one of them so so much.=((

It's like I feel the distance now. I hardly know where on earth my parents are. yes, literally. I am like getting used to talking to them and when I casually ask them where they are, half expecting them to say, at home. They would reply some funny places and I would be like, "since when did you guys go over there?".

Prolly that is the worst part of studying away from home. I don't feel the distance just between family, but of course, with friends.

We swore we will keep in touch and yes, we still do. But I, for sure know things will never be the same anymore. They can tell me all about their school and schoolmates etc, but I feel like i can hardly relate to them. Because I am not there, what they say just don't make any sense or what so ever to me.

I get so so jealous at times when my friends tell me they are having outings together and stuff. I get pissed, thinking why I can't be there having fun with them too. On the other hand, I am leading the life many dream of. I constantly remind myself how lucky I am to have the chance to study overseas without the burden of thinking of how much extra cost I am adding to the family. Daddy having to support four kids overseas sure isn't an easy thing. And I am, without a doubt blessed with a great family. But surely, everyone is allowed to let greed overwhelmed them ?

I know those of them who are there constatly cheering me on telling me I have to work hard, all just meant well. That they too can relate to the school stress I am facing. However, sometimes, I don't want someome to be able to relate to me and tell me about their way of coping or even comparing their stress to mine, hopefully making me feel better. I just want someone who is willing to listen to me whine, listen to all the horrible things I have to say and most importantly, just to be around.

I am truely ( I swearrrr by thiss) grateful for those around me though.

Anyways, vic and I kinda had this crazy idea of starting a fashion line on our own. Calling ourselves, LAY + VIC = LAVI.

This stresses me out. haha. yeah, "why?" you ask. Mummy was pretty supportive of me taking design in university but upon hearing melb uni does not offer such course she encouraged me to take early childhood instead of going to another uni(which makes sense, if not why do i try so hard to get into trinity college). BUT! the problem is I FREAKING HELL HATE KIDS! yes! I really don't like them. I can play with them and go, "awww! they are sooosooo cuteeee!!" for only like 5 mins and any longer the kids would prolly end up locked in the toilet.

So, I decided to drop that idea of designing and be more realistic. By oct 1st I have to submit my application. I guess I am going with the following choices, vet science, arts or arts and science. oh wells.~

oh oh! yum cha was super fun the other day. =)). thanks guys. sorry for not joinning today. Will see you guys on wed for picnic. hohoho.

thank you for hurting your eyes.=))