|| reality loves mocking at me.

It suddenly sinks in that I am going back to melbourne again. It's weird cause i haven had this "dreading" feeling since i went into 305 in secondary three. Everyone has been telling me about how tough term 3 would be and in a way i have been mentally preparing for it. but i guess i aint as strong as i hoped to be. everything seems to be going so wrong. i thought this holiday would be truely a time i would be spending quality with my loved ones. but everyone seems to be so caught up with their new life. even dad and mum is hardly ever around. i haven had some cooked food made by mum for eons (and why is the silly sad song playing? its as if its in sync with my sad mood!) . I know am prolly one of the luckiest person living on this earth. all always tell me i have everything i ever wanted, i should not asked for me. true enough, i always got what i wanted. but it never is enough. Coming back this time really makes me realize how much we've all grown, how fast i am pushed and let off to the real world. no more times when i could just ring a friend up and chat/hang out the whole day, everyone has finally found their path and are walking them on their own. I've also messed up heaps of friendships i sincerly treasured. It's saddening to know people do not appreciate you as much as you appreciate them. i guess what they say is true, promises are made to be broken. okay. enough emo-ing.

BACK ON YESTERDAY'S OUTING WITH SISTER LOH THE 4TH. we drove to town, payed for 1 hour's parking but stayed in town for i think nearly 4 hours. haha. and finally!! yes finally! i managed to get stuff! and its like nice stuff! =)). so yeah. it was a short trip to town but it was nice to shop with 4th sis again after so long. i still embrace the fun times we had when i was still in spore whereby we went shopping almost every other day. and now?! in aust, i only remember sister loh the 3rd and i going shopping when exams are nearing(retail therapy) that is. haha. so yep. =))

also spoke to melissa yesterday, she wanna organise a netball outing! yeah! i miss the times how we really bonded and cheered each other on as a team. =)) sweet beautiful memories! =)) so yep. it is supposed to be on the friday before i leave AGAIN. hopefully the outing comes through. =))


okay. flight tomorrow to hong kong is like 6 am in the morning. which means we would have to leave the house at 4am! like so super weird! haha. but this is a break i reckon i truely deserve. (agree with me or die people!).

p.s: To my gorgeous friends, we'll just let nature take its course and as long as i know i have done my part in ensuring our friendships last, i know we'll be just fine.=))