|| ultimately.

Yeah, so it finally boils down.

Suddenly, I feel all drained out emotionally. It's like, i have given so so much, till the point i am left with nothing else to give.

I keep screaming. None listening.

When they say they will be there, they never will be.

Before i can open up, you are already half way through your story of your tough time. note all the your? It is all about you.

Univeristy application is taking its toil on me.

I know to some 85% average seems so easy and within reach. But, suddenly, I am starting to doubt my abilities.

The extra thought that i will be missing chinese new year makes everything so much worst.

It is weird how I am not like i used to be. Being sad till the point i feel like crying.

All i feel now is numbness. As if i have learnt to block emotions out.

Maybe i really have mastered that.

im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

After emo-ing for a few seconds, I will be back. Since when can i stay sad for long anyways.
oh lay~!